fall nostalgia is interesting when I think of all the falls I can look back on fondly if I sever them as just that time.
I can think about the beginning of my first real long term relationship
I can think about Blacksburg and how the heat went out and grocery shopping and smoking in the bath
My ability to chug various alcohols is only rivaled by my ability to chug various laxatives.
2013
Fuck men and their inability not to scream and berate you when mad All I need is my fucking dog
trying to remove brain from self destruct + blame (anyone, myself or someone else) mode and trying to remind it about lack of communication, boundaries, comforts, etc really hasn’t been working
2017
I’m accidentally moving next to one of the schools with decent cool creative writing programs I was looking into like 5+ years ago and oh god my poor lil heart just wants science/sociology of health and creative writing
Oct 2017
Anonymous: what's your sideblog? i've followed you a long time and if you're letting us follow you to the new blog, i'd like towell ur anon so
getting sucked back down the ballet media rabbit hole and forever mourning not doing it but also didn’t know I had EDS and could have done some serious damage with the extent my hips are already fucked
He tells me that the west is making me soft. A woman is visibly upset and I try not to ask, I know what it brings, until I look back and she is crying. My voice is softer than I remember when I ask if she is okay and she crumbles. “I lost my family, it’s all my fault” I offer her a hug. She clings to me. I tell her my name,